Well, I'm up far too early. 4 a.m. is rather ridiculous Two weeks of Minnesota farm time have ruined me royally. Oh, it was worth it to see Mom and Dad, Josephine and David, Nicholas and Dana, Isabella and Stephen and baby Daniella for the first time outside of photos. And my younger cousins James and Ellie are still living with Mom and Dad. I don't think they'll ever go back to their parents. Probably just as well. I didn't even mind milking cows again, and truth is, I still miss Miss Myer, the cow I raised from a calf in high school, every time I leave home and come back to school. And everyone loved Peter, even if we are new, they all clicked with him.

Even the baby seemed to adore him. I think she liked him better than me. Hard to tell with an 8 week old, but she calmed down for him right away. Me, she fussed at. So not fair. I'm auntie Vic, I'm supposed to be the one all the neices and nephews turn to because I'm young and fun and full of energy. Well, that's true so far with Jo's kids and Nicky's, but the jury's still out on Belle's daughter. So not fair. Belle's my twin sister. You'd think the baby wouldn't be able to tell the difference that much, but we don't smell the same, and of course our personalities are very different.

Still, seeing Peter hold Dani gave me all kinds of thoughts I've never really thought about before. Like "oh, he's good with kids," and "gee, he'll make a good daddy one day," and "why does holding a baby like that make me want to snog him senseless?" Yeah, and I don't even want kids in the next, oh, five to six years, at least. If then. Maybe in my very early thirties, though. And only one or two. I grew up in a house with two sisters, one brother, and two cousins. There have always, always been babies in my life and when I came out here to go to school, it was amazing to find out what silence sounded like. I kind of want to keep that for the next decade or so.

But then Peter held that child. Gah. Why am I even thinking about him like that? We haven't even slept together yet. Which I know sounds odd, seeing as he came home with me to meet my family and all. And I had to tell my mother seperate rooms. She, my actual stodgy old mother, was going to put us in the same room. Thank goodness for drafty old farmhouses and lots of rooms. He's serious about me already. He's said so. I'm starting to think he's a virgin, though. Possible, since he's quite the techy geek. I think he's beautiful, but he's definitely the nerdy type. I just don't have the nerve to ask him. And for once in my life, well, I really don't want to rush.

Anyway, back to being up early. It's a pain because it means I'm falling asleep at 7 or 8 at night. My first class isn't until 8 a.m. I guess I could study ahead, but I seem to have lost my student skills. And I went to summer session, too! It's only been a couple of weeks. I hope I get them back before school starts in earnest. I hope I can get back on Pacific Daylight Time soon, too.

On a lighter note, I got to beta the third chapter of Treading Water by amberfocus yesterday. Whew! That's the only thing that's come close to making me want to rush things with Peter!